caught in the middle

i supposed to update on my so called-first run SCKLM but i was not in the mood to update.

the day before the event (sat, 23/6), hadzim was down with on-off fever and i fed him with medicine as needed.

thought he will be alright on the next day, as i planned to leave home by 3am (hubs full marathon flagged off at 4.30am and mine is at 7.15am).

the night before the event, my excited hubs (because it was my first run) prepared me all the running essentials - he placed the number bib on my shirt, choosed me the shirt (i supposed to wear his marathon finisher tshirt last year sebab sama kaler dgn this year yg sleeveless shirt, so sgt matching gitewww), water belt, water bottle and even the powergel (haha lari 10km pon siap powergel, hubs takut i pitam kat tgh jalan sbb dia tak bleh nak nolong punye). we slept at 9.30pm.

woke up at 2.30am. bathed. i noticed hadzim's fever is getting worse. he was shivering and was so warm. i bathed him. masukkan ubat buntut & feed him with medicine. pakaikan dia sweater & put him to sleep.

talk to hubs --- im not going. tak sampai hati nak pegi, nak tinggalkan dia. eventho kalau pegi pon teringat-ingat kat hadzim & rasa bersalah yg menebal, so better tak pegi. how to run when your mind is at home thinking about the sick son? and if anything bad happened during my absence..? sedih gile weyyy. siap menangis-nangis (drama 3am) sebab sedih sgt tak dapat pegi after all the preparations i've made.

pagi tu, hadzim dah ok dah. hadzim mmg jarang demam lama-lama, so walaupon i dah agak dia akan baik pagi tu tapi tak pelah i korbankan running i. tunggu next running jek la.

hubs completed his 2nd full marathon with about 5.5hr. habis run terus balik rumah, tak de mood nak look around pon because he was all alone (he said). kesian dia tak de gamba kat finish line hari ni. tunggu official photos at the web jek la ...  

full marathon finisher tshirt.
next year SCKLM bole la i pakai ni sbb the design will be this color plus yg ni ada sleeve. i loike!