yes, my breastfeeding journey has come to an end.
relieved? i should say yes (in slow volume).
hadzim is going to turn 23 months next week.
ok, lagi sebulan je lagi nak masuk 2 tahun .. tempoh yang digalakkan untuk breastfeed.
but i decided to quit my breastfeeding journey right now, right here. im done here. i have no regret at all.
some people says breastfeeding during pregnancy will lead to misscarriage. yelah mana nak bagi zat untuk anak lg, untuk diri sendiri lagi, untuk baby yang dikandung lg - 3 in 1.
at first, i wanted to keep on breastfeed until hadzim reach 2 years.
tapi macam tak boleh laa .. balik rumah jek hadzim nak breastfeed. and suddenly lepas bf dia, mesti terasa lepak gilerrr. penat dia lain macam. dan kadang-kadang terasa tensyen sebab hadzim sengaja nak bergayut.
and hadzim himself, tak de unsur-unsur nak weaning pon, walaupon org kata the baby will refused himself after the mom get pregnant .. tapi tak de pongggg :(
so after discussion with hafdzuan (quitting breastfeeding have to get husband's permission ok ..?) i tried to wean hadzim since last week.
with few suggestions from friends in facebook, as first try, i put on salt on the nipple.
the first 2 trial, hadzim refused to breastfeed (tapi mak dia plak emo .. sedih sebab tak ready lg .. mental!! tapi akhirnya semangat kene jadi kuat. sampai bile? sampai dah ada adik baru ank stop ..?).
kesian hadzim yang buat muka pelik makan garam dan terus cakap "nanak!!"
2 days after that, dia dah bijak sikit.
he stared at the nipple and removed the salt himself! warghhhhh sangat tensyen. lepas abis removed garam dia sucks balik. aduhai anakku.
then i try letak serbuk kopi plak (on last saturday and sunday).
it works.
until today, it has been 4 days hadzim refused to bf. i did asked him, "hadzim nak ----- tak?" he quickly replied "nanak". tp ada ada kekadang dia tonyoh2 muke .. mcm gian plak .. ;)
its actually quite frustating for me, as i was the one who quit & give up, not hadzim.
i wish hadzim is the one who refused himself naturally, but since it doesn't work at all, i have to do this and its just too sad :(
anyhow, 23 months is a wonderful and unforgettable journey for me.
i should take some rest before i started on the second one .. soon.
9 comments:
sedih pulak bace :'(
and you are right on this:
its actually quite frustating for me, as i was the one who quit & give up, not hadzim
after my 1st attempt early this year, i felt exactly the same way. its like i'm denying khayr's right to get whats best for him.
sebab tuh sampai skarang even orang cakap "ehhh anak you dah 1y3m you can start weaning him off" i'll just senyum kambing then brush it off like that. coz i think selagi aku tak pregnant for second one, i'll let khayr to decide on his own... (which is gonne be tough coz he's fully bf still..).
ape2 pun.. looking forward to your new journey soon!
(hahaha kelakar gils ok hadzim tau nak bersihkan garam tu sendiri.. :D)
hhuhuhu...mmg sedey kn! xpe la..sekurang2 nye ko leh rest skjp b4 2nd journey start.
ape pn..congrats dear fren..u have been bf hadzim for 23mths. x semua org mampu buat semua tu & nk buat.
nnti 2nd round ni kte wt pump schedule kt server eh :-)
dont be sad... u did good job already, dear ;)
lia - selagi tak pregnant second keep on breastfeeding yoo ..! nothing too loose :) until khayr wean off himself. sangat sedih ok kalau kita yg wean off sendiri.. :(
mariam - tqvm :) yeahhh nnt sama2 ngepam haha ;)
atul - tq :) u can do it too~~
it's ok farah, u did a great job already! maybe it's about time for hadzim to wean off, sbb nak dapat adik dah kan. my SIL masa pregnant stop kejap, bila dah deliver si kakak nak BF balik, dah berebut dgn si baby.. kurusss la mak dia hehe..
mmg sedih giler frh. in fact masa adre dlu kak yun siap nangis2 mcm saiko jek sebab anak dah tanak bf.. sob sob.. takpe.. masa hadzim dah smpi.. turn adik plak :D
fatih - tq :) yeahh its time already. huwaaa ye ke .. kaalu bole tak mo laa mcm tu .. kesian kt adik.
kak yun - haha yeke. tp mmg sedih laa :( yee betul tu :)
hehe.
aleesya giv up sendiri ngam2 masa aku pregnant.
die yang muak,die trus serik.aku pun tatau pe rasa susu orang mengandung.
papepun,rindu sgt saat tu.mudahan2 aku dapatlah anak ketiga sebagai pengantinya plak kan..amin.
ashra - tu laa aku pn harap sgr hadzim yg give up sendiri mcm anak org lain .. tapi xde plak .. huhu. sedih bila kita sendiri yg quit :( insyaAllah ashra, soon .. my pray goes to u :)
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