yes, my breastfeeding journey has come to an end.
relieved? i should say yes (in slow volume).
hadzim is going to turn 23 months next week.
ok, lagi sebulan je lagi nak masuk 2 tahun .. tempoh yang digalakkan untuk breastfeed.
but i decided to quit my breastfeeding journey right now, right here. im done here. i have no regret at all.
some people says breastfeeding during pregnancy will lead to misscarriage. yelah mana nak bagi zat untuk anak lg, untuk diri sendiri lagi, untuk baby yang dikandung lg - 3 in 1.
at first, i wanted to keep on breastfeed until hadzim reach 2 years.
tapi macam tak boleh laa .. balik rumah jek hadzim nak breastfeed. and suddenly lepas bf dia, mesti terasa lepak gilerrr. penat dia lain macam. dan kadang-kadang terasa tensyen sebab hadzim sengaja nak bergayut.
and hadzim himself, tak de unsur-unsur nak weaning pon, walaupon org kata the baby will refused himself after the mom get pregnant .. tapi tak de pongggg :(
so after discussion with hafdzuan (quitting breastfeeding have to get husband's permission ok ..?) i tried to wean hadzim since last week.
with few suggestions from friends in facebook, as first try, i put on salt on the nipple.
the first 2 trial, hadzim refused to breastfeed (tapi mak dia plak emo .. sedih sebab tak ready lg .. mental!! tapi akhirnya semangat kene jadi kuat. sampai bile? sampai dah ada adik baru ank stop ..?).
kesian hadzim yang buat muka pelik makan garam dan terus cakap "nanak!!"
2 days after that, dia dah bijak sikit.
he stared at the nipple and removed the salt himself! warghhhhh sangat tensyen. lepas abis removed garam dia sucks balik. aduhai anakku.
then i try letak serbuk kopi plak (on last saturday and sunday).
it works.
until today, it has been 4 days hadzim refused to bf. i did asked him, "hadzim nak ----- tak?" he quickly replied "nanak". tp ada ada kekadang dia tonyoh2 muke .. mcm gian plak .. ;)
its actually quite frustating for me, as i was the one who quit & give up, not hadzim.
i wish hadzim is the one who refused himself naturally, but since it doesn't work at all, i have to do this and its just too sad :(
anyhow, 23 months is a wonderful and unforgettable journey for me.
i should take some rest before i started on the second one .. soon.